The art of being crazy

I am 'done' with classes for one more module. Yay.

It means I have another six more modules to go. Which frankly, feels like a long time, but um, I am sure is bear-able.

I have been back for nearly a month now. And it feels like a long time again.

And no, don 't get me wrong. I do not mean to say that this one month has been tormenting; I am just commenting that it feels like I have been back for a long time. As to why I have this feeling, I am not exactly sure.

I guess I don't really need to know why anyway.

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I have submitted my first (actually, it is not strictly my first because a long time back--say 15 years ago at least) I once tried to submit my article too.

Of course, I was disappointed.

And honestly, if you ask me now, I would say that I have a feeling my article will be rejected.

It is one thing for myself to be confident of my writing, and another for people to like my writing.

It is one thing to write in my little book of reflections and another for people to read my reflections.

Whatever it is, I wouldn't know. If they like it, they will let me know (I think). If it is not up to standard, then well, I will just take it as it is.

Acknowledgement. That is what I will do.

*smiles*

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On the little list in front of me, I have 3 items under the heading "TO-DO".

One is to write and then try my luck at submitting; the next is to send a recording to become a part-time dee-jay, and the last is to bake.

Will I really get down to doing it?

That is a hard question.

I mean, if you ask me, why do I choose these three? Well, because these are things I have ALWAYS wanted to do.

(But then the irony is, I always want to do so many things. So really, for me to get down to this list, is a miracle!)

Put it another way: These are things which I have always wanted to do, and which I feel I shouldn't delay any longer.

Yes, I like this way of putting it.

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If you think about it, the cycle of acceptance and rejection is but another phase of a natural cycle in life.

Like the commenter on the two young managers put it (these two men put in their own capital to open a new cinema in Singapore), it is all about being 'crazy'.

Of course, that is my exaggerated interpretation of the word.

What I mean, in a more acceptable version, is to be passionate.

"If there is no sense of adventure, then there won't be an audience. There won't be creativity because there won't be productions. There won't be directors and there won't be scripters. How then do you expect the foreign firms to support local films?"

(I am still trying to hone my art in translation).

We all have little dreams.

And part of the process of weaving dreams is the acceptance that there is potential for failure, and the acknowledgement that rejection is part of life.

And so I live my life thereon.

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And maybe that is why the one month has seemed to be a long time...