Seasonal blues, I hope

Suddenly, I am hit by another bout of homesickness yet again.

(Frankly, I don't think it should be classified as homesickness but then as we all know, human beings are always in denial.)

Why, I don't know. Maybe it is because I have too many things to do (HUH? You say?) but I am not doing any of them right now.

Nah, I really don't quite know why. Maybe it is the season.

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It snowed on Sunday morning.

Or maybe it was Saturday night. It doesn't matter, does it? What matters is that it did snow.

I woke up to find the landscape in an array of white and more white. It was very pretty. Very pretty.

I went to church not fully aware of the perils of driving under such conditions.

And sure thing, the car skidded.

Thank God I was running late. Usually I am quite punctual and that would mean a time when the roads were busier.

So it was really a good thing I was almost late that Sunday.

The steering wheel refused to budge. The brakes gave a stuck sound (I found out later it was some anti-lock mechanism. Whatever it was, it really wasn't very useful to me). My car went out of control and I hit a pole.

Thank God it was only a lamp post! Can you imagine the fear streak up my spine?

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I have had my fair share of mess with cars.

Just on Friday, I had hit (yes, again!) yet another car in the car park.

Why?

Bad judgement.

Kan cheong.

Actually, whatever it is, it doesn't matter. Because it doesn't change the fact that I knocked a car.

I had stopped and waited, hoping that the driver will come out and I can leave him my number.

Instead, some passer-by was staring at me (By the way, it was the same passer-by who was waiting at my back with a super-impatient look and hence got me kan cheong). I don't know, what was the action most people would do?

I did return to the parking lot with a note and my contact number. (I was rushing the kid to class then) The car didn't seem to be there anymore.

Was it my head which refused to acknowledge the car, meaning had I remembered wrongly? Or had the driver really left already???

I don't know. I was just...

at a loss of words.

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One thing that striked me deeply is that it is so much easier to think about the unhappy stuff than the happy ones.

Like how privileged I am to be in this family who provides me with a TV, high-speed internet access and a cellphone.

Never mind the fact the room is the oldest and the coldest. Well, they have expressed approval when I asked if I could sleep in the guest room anyway.

And also how they so willingly pay for my groceries because I just don't eat the things they eat.

Never mind the fact that some stuff I really need (and I pen in the weekly shopping list) are always conveniently ignored. Never mind the fact that I am often hungry because there is nothing in the house to eat.

Don't get me wrong. I am just giving you both sides of the argument. I am just trying to show you how much I am taking this for granted when I really shouldn't.

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We are heading for a short getaway this weekend.

It is the first time we are traveling together and I am not quite sure what to expect (especially in terms of food...*GOSH*)

Whatever it is, I do look forward to it.

Because the weather is so super cold now (it is 0 deg C now), I have postponed plans to travel. I was initially planning to go to Virginia in Jan but I really don't think I would want to do much in this freezing cold.

(See, I told you it is the season getting me down.)

Keep a look-out in my photo albums for pictures! (Email me if you want the link. I have decided that I shall not publicly announce it.)

And till then, take care! I heard that it is pouring almost everyday in Singapore. Although I don't like rain, I definitely think that sort of a weather is more tolerable than the winds blowing at 50 miles an hour with snow charging at your face!