Master of science

Last night, I was thrilled to receive an sms from E.

She had messaged me to tell me about LISS. Interestingly (amazingly) it was the one I had seen on the noticeboard on Sun, and had told myself to go browse the website which I had then forgotten.


More interestingly, I had meant to attend Amplify's LISS, which is scheduled next Sat/Sun. I hadn't because this weekend I am at EE and there were no other replacement classes I could attend.


He does work in mysterious ways.


As of now, I have officially signed up. And E is also officially helping out. In the group I will be in!


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This is by far the most number of retreats I have ever attended in a year!


Of course, I used to think retreats were nonsense.


I used to think communal living was nonsense. That is why I didn't want to stay in the hall when I was in the University. I cannot understand why people want to share bathrooms and toilets with others. (Yes, you have to share with others when you are at home but that is different, right?)


Anyway. my perspective took a turn after the first retreat this year. Which was yes, my first retreat, which happened before baptism.


I enjoyed that. And finally, I think I understood it.


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I am still struggling about the paths in front of me.


I have applied to a few schools to do a Ph.D but all I get are rejection emails.


That, must mean something.


But what that means--I am sorry I don't know. I am frustrated I don't know.



All I know is if there were a reason why I want to do a PhD, it would be because the brain gets me excited.


But then many things get me excited too.


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I have been called a Jack of all trades and a Master of none by R's mother.

I didn't deny it. It is true.

But I didn't like it to end that way so I answered back: I am a Master of Science.

And that is true too.

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I wish I could be clearer of where I am heading.

I wonder why I don't ever know.

And I wonder if I really am only mean to be a Jack of all trades.