All the best for the new year!

The last blog entry before the new year!

*screams*

I have many things to write about, yet I am not sure what I should write about. Well...

...

I was looking through my stuff when I came across old letters and cards which dated back to 2004.

Gee. What was I doing then?

I had probably just finished my Honours year, applied to do Masters.

2004. I don't know. Feels like a long time ago. Was I like how I am now?

I don't know. I feel that that part of my memory is blocked. How and why, I can't explain. But I just can't seem to be able to access it.

I saw the letter from my friend. So we did write to each other for a while? Why can't I recall that?

What happened thereafter? Was it I who broke the correspondence?

Then, I should feel ashamed.

...

I am feeling terribly afraid.

You see. I look forward to my new job, but at the same time, I am afraid.

Morrie says that is a tension of opposites.

I think so too!

A tension of opposites. Looking forward yet dreadful. Hhmmm...just like how I love dance and hate it. How I love R and hate him sometimes?

Ha...I don't know.

I am heading for a countdown party tonight. And I am quite anxious about it too.

Anxious because it has been a long time since I went to one and I am not quite sure if the company will turn out ok.

Well...I worry too much I think.

Time to start worrying less and doing more!

Thanks for the great friendship in the past year!

All the best to you for 2009!!!