If I have my way, I would definitely not be here right now.
Listening and withstanding crap.
This one is with my mum.
She said I can't deliver my promises.
Well, I said I was going to teach her how to go on the Internet when I get back. When I got back, haha...yes, I just don't want to do it anymore.
Really, she can nag all she want, about me and my empty promises.
I don't care.
It is very tiring to care.
Just a few weeks ago, I was just asking around for places to rent. Yes, I wanted to move out.
I wish I could move out like that...but I know I will break my parents' hearts.
So I will suck it all in and just turn a deaf ear.
But that is not me. Although yes, you can argue--who are you?
Who do you think you are?
The truth is, half the world's population probably don't have an answer to that. The other half don't bother with the question.
...
Life kind of sucks really.
I can't complain much because life could be worse.
I am thankful I am in a place without natural disasters.
I am thankful I am not dying of starvation, yet.
But yes, the ungrateful mentality has caught up with me once again.
...
I don't have a solution to many of the problems I am facing now...like how my colleagues teased me about being a rabbit--I can only hope that they don't mean it in a menacing way.
I am really frustrated at the way my life is being led (note how I phrase my sentence: I didn't say leading my life, I said, my life being led...know the difference??? If not, it is ok...go read up on English linguistics).
The truth is, I have lost quite a bit of the apparent happy-go-lucky side of myself.
And yes, I said apparent happy-go-lucky.
So what is my immediate goal right now? Or maybe, not even immediate goals. What about my goals in life?
...
None.
Can I say that?
Is that a legitimate answer?
I don't have goals anymore. I just want to lead a simple life.
Simple life with simple happiness.
That is really all I want for now.
1 comment:
wow this is freaky as. i was just talking to my brother about moving out and it's various complications and then straight after i decided hmm i'll go check on her blog and came here and you were talking about moving out! how psychic! lol
anyways, i was telling my brother that our mother has problems with me moving out because in the old culture, people only moved out for mostly 2 reasons: (a) they got married, (b) they hate their family. so i think my mother can't accept that i'm moving out because i just feel it's time and that even though i'm living out of home i don't hate her. i don't know if you feel the same. for me, i guess the solution is time. time for her to realise that even i'm not at her home we'll still get along fine (mostly lol).
*hugs* for the situation you're in. i hope it gets better and you'll create more opportunities and it all gets much better. hang in there. i wanna call you but i don't have your number. hmm.
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