Lingering on ...freedom

I hadn't gone dancing in NQ for a long time. In fact, I hadn't met up with my Salsa friends for a long time.

I went down on Tue, and there was a crowd. Among us, already there was a turnout of 6 people. At the club, it was even more crowded. I was told that it was Beginners' Night.

Right.

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I used to think Salsa was a very sleazy dance. I guess I just wasn't comfortable at the way some guys hold the girls.

But as of now, I have become quite 'ok' with it.

I think I can appreciate the music better, not to mention, enjoy dancing more.

If guys cuddle me, and they do it in a sleazy way, then I just try my best to keep a distance.

But I don't usually get that--Thankfully--probably because 1) I am not gorgeous-looking; 2) I always stick to T-shirts (which kills all sense of femininity).

And I don't usually think highly of Salsa guys. Maybe because I have heard of a few who were j***...

But on Tue, I thought this guy was absolutely mesmerizing.

He took my breath away. For a moment...

He kept giving me reassuring pats on my back. Literally. Momentarily, he will whisper...Relax, relax. One time, he even told me to not worry and just keep smiling.

Yeah, I am very nervous when I dance with strangers.

And the way he spins! So graceful. The way he moves...He even shines with shine.

Wah...plus that cologne of his, lady-killer ah.

Haha.

In fact, I told R (he came to pick me up) that if I had not met him, I would have wooed that guy!

Of course, I am exaggerating. I don't think I will really woo him. But the fact is, I do feel that guys who can dance well or play music well exhibit an irresistible appeal.

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I kind of wonder if I will still get to go dancing after I am married.

I have seen many people 'deteriorate' following marriage. They don't go dancing anymore. They don't socialize anymore.

They transform...into a house-person.

Which, please do not get me wrong, is not a bad thing at all.

It is good to be spending your time with the person you love. I would want to do that too.

But I do want to do other things too.

I still want to be able to go dancing (never mind about meeting impressive guys who can twirl and spin with grace and charm).

I still want to learn foreign languages and travel around the world (It would be ideal if R comes with me but if he can, I will be more than happy to have him around).

I still want to learn how to do gymnastics.

I sill want to have my own life.

And I hope that will be the case.