A fast chicken or a slow eagle

I just came back from the doctor's.

Yes, how pathetic is that--to have time to blog only because one is sick.

Ha...

But no, I am not saying that because I feel sorry for myself, or what so ever.

I am glad I have the time (and clearness of mind, if there is such a phrase) to blog. As a matter of fact, I am really feeling quite drowsy. After this, which hopefully will not take me too long, I shall head for bed.

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I hate Fridays. I really do.

I have two rascal classes. But well, maybe they are rascal because I am not that good a teacher.

I don't think I have had the opportunity to tell you about what has happened:

I have been assigned two P3 classes, which are well, like I said, rascals.

Yes, they are cute--as all P3s are. But they are really naughty.

And that drives me crazy.

Now, because a fellow teacher is going on maternity leave UNEXPECTEDLY, I have been given another class.

No, I don't like gifts in particularm especially not classes.

But I don't have a choice. So really, that only makes me more afraid of Fridays...

MAYBE that is why I fell sick today! My mind is too worried!!! (Yes, the new scehdule starts today.)

I am frankly quite pissed that I have to cover for her for two months.

No, I am not pissed that I have to cover her. I am pissed that I have to cover that timing, which leads to me having no dinner. That *shakes my head* is really very bad.

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I got my HSK exam results today.

What can I say except I am disappointed?

I got the minimum marks but I didn't satisfy the 3 out of 4 criteria to get A.

So sad, ah...

So the next question is, do I want to retake it?

Do I want to put in the effort to try for an A again???

I don't know...

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So what am I doing right now?

It is still the same kind of lifestyle.

I attend morning class on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. I work on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday.

And yes, I am looking at other jobs, although frankly, I really don't know what I can do.

I mean, I sometimes really just feel--is there anything I can do?

Sometimes I feel that I am really skill-less so all I can do, is what I have been doing.

That makes me sad, yes, but is that not reality?

I don't know.

I know this entry is a little unlike my style...please forgive me; I am really drowsy.

Maybe if I feel better in the evening, I will write about my thoughts....but before I pen off, I have this question:

Would you be a chicken that runs the fastest, or an eagle that flies the slowest?

Think about it.

Really, give it some serious thought.